The Saints did it all

The list of 'been-there-done-that' will always include: Smoking,drinking and other 'ings' that I better not plunge into. Most of them will see its place in our college years. Two years ago my friend quit smoking. A year ago he, he always mentioned how he valiantly steered the ship of fortitude and trounced the habit and expunge his system of the toxicant. He always sensed a pride of quitting the cesspool of lighting up and one could always feel the emancipation in his words.

Two weeks ago, my friend smoked again. That is why I started with saying my friend quit two years ago. He did not resume the habit but rather caved in after two years. We cannot call him completely clean as he relapsed though we don't have to 'brand' the poor bloke. Two years, without the stick, he was unblemished, two weeks ago, he was lonely, passions created a revulsion, nostalgia kicked in, one thing led to another and he activated the dormant account.

My point is not to belittle my friend's achievement or hail his effort. My point is this: We can never claim we have trounced our weaknesses or that we are larger than our temptations. We can never arrogantly affirm that we are stronger than our weakest temptation. St. Theresa of Avila said, "Our temptations are the measure of our weakness"

We are enslaved as long as we think we are liberated. But as long as we think we need God's grace to 'Lead Us Not into Temptation’, may be the grace will keep coming. The moment we allow some pride to creep into our system over our achievement and trivialize an ‘erstwhile conquered vice’ (like saying smugly, ‘Smoking was so difficult but I nailed the thing and broke off, I was better than it), we ascribe to the struggle our own strength and consequently, grace may in turn, be stifled. We may be on our own from then on: with all passions and no grace.

Not that God abandons us for our wee bit of human pride. For spiritually, we yet love God and recognize his working. But humanly, we are left to ourselves. We are allowed to fall and to realize how much more we need God. St. Thomas Aquinas calls this the fear of God1 : Fear of separating oneself from God. He describes the gift as a "filial fear," like a child's fear of offending his father, rather than a "servile fear," that is, a fear of punishment
We are left to ourselves to realize how much we need God and how foolish it is to think we have conquered over selfishness, over alcohol, smoking, lust, greed, gluttony, sloth or anything that defiles us in excess.

That is why also, I believe the Saints are the real heroes of the world for they showed true heroism in the taming of their passions . They did this not to self-indulgently reach perfection but for the love of God, dedicating themselves to things larger than themselves. A fool abstains (in line with taming of the appetite) just to see how far he can go with it. If he does it just to know ‘his’ capacity, it’s still about himself: how far ‘he’ can go, what ‘he’ can do, how strong ‘he’ is, how much adulation ‘he’ can receive from it, how much ‘his’ ego can get boosted. The struggle only fills himself more with himself. It is all about his pride and his achievement and his glory.

But the saints did not know what they can do or what can be done through them. They conquered not by strength but by abandonment to God. Not by holding within but by letting go. That is why we may be glorious in many a things in life either at work which is a necessity or at a hobby by skill. But try doing what your mind doesn’t aid. (Skill comprises what your mind is disposed towards. Try playing a game you are a novice at just to accompany your friends even though you could have played another game you are skilled at). Try involving in something your passions rebel against (try standing through your journey rather than taking a seat. The passions within will commence screaming: No No! It’s a long journey, you can read the paper, you will get tired, you paid for the seat etc). Try choosing something your will does not incline towards (try choosing a meal you least prefer. The will does not comply to do it for there is no purpose driving the will, I can understand).

They will all cry for a purpose. Why should I play a game I am not good at? Why should I stand when I have paid for the seat? Why should I eat something I prefer less over something I prefer more? Even a sportsman will subdue his passion: give up that what brings him down (smoking, junk food) but he too has a purpose: The purpose to win the trophy aids him. I have a friend who once told me: I don’t eat meat on Tuesdays. On asking him why such a noble pursuit, he replied: Just that, I don’t eat. I didn’t know how much nobility prevailed if he didn’t know himself why he was doing it.

Training of your passions is as good as the purpose or motive to pursue it. Even self-development is a noble ideal. A man who increases his hours of reading because he believes reading is a good thing is motivated by his conviction of goodness of reading and the good reading will achieve in his life: self-development.

The saints had ‘all for you my Lord!’ as their motive and their lives are an extra-ordinary testimony of grace. They died eventually doing the will of God throughout the ages 2. Their lives stand as a salute to what the desire to love God can do and their death sees the rejoicing of angels in awaiting the banquet in Heaven. But before the climax came the everyday heroism which Mother Teresa of Calcutta talks about as ‘Little acts done with great love’. In St. Paul’s words, the saints died daily3. While Christ’s ‘once and-for-all’ death on the cross received for them their redemption. For the saints, the memory of Christ’s choice of death motivated them out of love to die daily in little things in the hope that like the grain of wheat they may too rise again4

It all started with one action at a time and from there it reached Hospitals, schools, Colleges, Homes for the Poor, aged or those rejected by Society. While we can have any and all the purpose we want: self-development, trophies and the likes, their testimony of faith through their testimony of grace is there to see everywhere in the world and goes to exemplify how much their purpose eclipsed sublimity and continues to be today for every potential saint in every corner of the world. The saints, always fired up by their zeal burning like a beacon set ablaze the paths everywhere they tread.

Each of us who studies the lives of the saints is passed on this fire whether we encounter them in our schools as St. Francis of Assisi or in colleges as St. Thomas or Books of Prayers. First, we have to start with our own passions. What do we have to die towards, today?

1 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seven_gifts_of_the_Holy_Spirit
2 The Liturgy of Mass: Liturgy of the Eucharist, Eucharistic Prayer II
3 1 Corinthians 15:31
4 John 12:24